a poet to a mock

i must be crazy this time those glances shadowed me over time
i should make things right from this now on
i just wondering why does the ravion go blue all the way?
you got me on my nerves
your glance , your glance made me nuts !
why do this kind of things exist ?
yeh you . do you know your haunted me down
make it all to be sensed!

it was just running around my head. i think i do have an attract into poet world. somehow poetry show what's inside and what's not inside and what is indeed out of it ! haha..
maybe it is due to my final exam time . haha it's drivin' me nuts..
have a blessed exam week everyone =)

crush or not

late in the dark of the night
the moon's standin' still , i'm not pretending to fall asleep in my bed
it just a some thought that pushing through my dream
just only about you
i retry to sleep
but it's you who come on my phone
i even copy someone's else message just to start a talk
i still wonderin' what's my next question
just remember when the day came
it's so fast
i pretend to write but i try not to hide
i pretend to close but once i try to push it
i pretend to go but sometimes it make me go further to think about that
do i have it ?
is it a crush or not?
let the devotion make it all the way
you know it

please vote for Agnes Monica

Agnes in undeniably wonderful yet talented singer from Indonesia.
She is one of the nominee in MTV EMA awards.
Indonesian you should support her ! please !

This is the link
http://m.mtvema.com/vote-thanks.rbml?lang=EN&region=ASIA
you can click it more than one , so what r ya waitin for ?

let's support our star =)

udah lama sekali ga nulis ya..
well , updatenya skrg jarang banget karena admin lagi sibuk2nya penelitian dan mnyusun tugas akhir haha..!

good luck for both of us !
habis ujian saya janji akan update tulisan lagi =)

just helping my friend =)

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you can click it if you want thank you =)

quote

Janganlah berdoa untuk kehidupan yang gampang.
Berdoalah untuk menjadi orang yang lebih kuat
Jangan berdoa untuk tugas-tugas
yang setara dengan kekuatanmu
Berdoalah untuk kekuatan yang setara dengan tugas2mu
maka pekerjaanmu mungkin bukanlah keajaiban
melainkan kamulah yang menjadi keajaiban

[ Phililips Brooks ]

3 event in a day

thx God it's finally August 11th..

mau review sedikit apa yang terjadi di hari ini.
Setidaknya ada 3 event yang besar yang terjadi untuk hari kemerdekaan ini !

1. Ospek Unpar
wah ga disangka saya udah melewati peristiwa bersejarah untuk semua mahasiswa itu 3 tahun yang lalu. lucu banget ketika ngeliat anak2 2011 yang masih polos2 pake baju putih hitam masuk kampus unpar. and ga nyangka aja udah lewatnya 3 tahun. time flies really really fast.
seneng banget ngeliat anak2 2011 ,, wah rasa2 nya pengen ngulang saat ospek 2008 lagi haha..
i miss those precious moments. i miss the laugh and the anger also ! haha

2. Pengumuman Kelulusan ujian Kompre TK
seperti yang telah diketahui untuk lulus dari jurusan yang luar biasa ini setiap mahasiswa TK harus mengikuti ujian komprehensif yang super duper menegangkan itu.. bahan ujiannya dari semester 1-8 . edann! i would experience the euphoria next year.
dan yang paling menegangkan itu adalah ketika nama kita satu persatu dipanggil maju ke depan dan dibacakan apakah kita lulus atau tidak.. ckckck..
dashyat ! haha..
well selamat buat kakak2 yang udah lulus hari ini . makasih buat 3 tahun ke belakang buat ospeknya, lab nya, cerita2 dosennya, pinjeman2 bukunya, ngegosip barengnya.!
wish that everything would be more n more interesting after this .
buat kakak2 yang masih belom lulus. semangat ! kompre selanjutnya harus dihabiskan ya ! =)

3. This is officially MY DAY
haha..
menyadari ini mungkin saja ultah terakhir saya di bandung rasanya sedikit miris haha..
every year i had a great day and i always have fun of it !
dan sekarang rasanya gokil juga ya.. udah 3 tahun saya di kota ini dan well i should cherish every moment ..

thx semua buat ucapan , doa dan everyhting.. you are all so precious to me =)

a really old song from my childhood !

i stuck doin' my internship report and my research, so i randomly search on youtube a mandarin song,, and tadaa i found these..

i love the voice of her.. her name is Timi..
i don't really know about her, and also i'm not her fan actually
but somehow her voice makes me feel refreshed

http://youtu.be/cAEtGJ35ZEg

http://youtu.be/hKfDGe3u7VY

you can open it if you want because i was too lazy to upload it during the connection is low

but i love one song called "grandma's penghu bay"
i loved it!
not only the lyrics but also the melody !

Grandma’s Penghu Bay

Evening breeze is kissing Penghu Bay softly,
The ocean waves are chasing the sand beach.
There is no any coco forest decorating the setting sun，but only the blue sea.

I am sitting on the sunk fence of the front of the gate，
to recall once and once...
It was also on the sand beach at dusk，
there were 2 couple and a half footprint on the beach,
That was grandma leaning on a stick
and she was taking my hand...

We were stepping on the dewfall，
walking to the setting sunshine，
Warm Penhu Bay.
One footprint is a bunch of laughs，
we had spent so much happy time
until the dim light of night covered both of us
on the road that came back home.
The Penghu Bay,
The Penghu Bay,
Grandma's Penghu Bay
There were so many fantasies of my childhood's，
sunshine, sand beach, ocean wave, cactus，
and an elder captain...

晚风轻拂澎湖湾
海浪逐沙滩。
没有椰林缀斜阳 ，
只是一片海蓝蓝 。

坐在门前的矮墙上 ，
一遍遍怀想，
也是黄昏的沙滩上 ，
有着脚印两对半 。

那是外婆拄着杖 ，
将我手轻轻挽 ，
踩着薄暮 ，
走向余晖 ，
暖暖的澎湖湾 。

一个脚印是笑语一串，
消磨许多时光，
直到夜色吞没我俩在回家的路上 。

澎湖湾，
澎湖湾，
外婆的澎海湾 。

有我许多的童年幻想 ，
阳光、沙滩、海浪、仙人掌 ，
还有一位老船长。

somehow the lyrics remind me of my childhood, my memory , my friend and Bali

sekali lagi untukku

jalan ini tukarkan penatku
tawa ini bentuk kembali khayalku
sesak ini takkan pernah muncul lagi dan hancurkan asaku
dan kenanganmu juga takkan terhapus
di balik rangkaian umpatan dan cerita
ada sebuah makna
ya sekali lagi untukku
kini suaraku bukan untuk menggema
tapi dia juga bukan untuk mencipta
ya sekali lagi memang untukku
kemudian kudengar desir canda membangunkan lamunanku
tapi kali ini dia tau bukan untukku
romansa tautan menggeser sebuah makna
bukan berarti dia hilang
hanya dia pudar
dan biarkan aku kembali tidur
sekali lagi untukku

balii

what should i say bali is so d**n wonderful and fantastic..
i just can't believe i spend a month and a half in this terrific island !
please check out the beauty and me ! hhahaa










Tak disangka Internship yang hampir 2 bulan ini selesai juga..
rasa2nya baru kemarin mau berangkat dan ternyata sekarang sudah ada di kamar kos yang aslii..
Thx a lot Temesi !
terima kasih buat Ibu Diana, Mr David, Ibu Arry, Ibu kadek besar,kadek kecil, Pak Cakre, Pak kadek, Bu Nyoman , Ibu Warung Pengkolan ( you should try the taste of her food !)

especially for Didi , our little brother ! will miss you a lot ,, grow bigger bro and be an architect =)

thx juga buat Pastor,Ibu Evi,Pak Edi,Suster Filipino, sayang kita ga sempet foto bareng yaa..
thx juga buat gereja Pantekosta Gianyar buat Pak Simon , istri keluarga dan nicko.. makasih banget bantuan dan pinjaman motornya..


you've captured my heart *hahahahh..
don't miss me my Gianyar's friend =)
i'm sure i MUST back again someday ..

my prayer

dear God,
someone had ever asked me,
do you believe in future?
i said no, then they said why? because future is not a guarantee to make you happy i replied
so what else? don't you want to have a big house, a rich family, a pretty wife , that's all what life for!

i replied,
then what if your house is small, your family is not rich, you don't have a pretty wife, you are a nothing.?

that's the conversation,

Lord,
i just pretend not to be selfish, but forgive us human who'd been so selfish among these days.
yes, of course i'd love to have a big house, i'd love to be rich, i'd love to have cute kids and pretty wife.
but if there is no YOU .. it's nothing
i don't need those things if YOU are not here with me.

Lord, my way is not your way.
My future plan is not YOUR plan sometimes.
Lord please fetch and guide me to the place, to the vision , to somewhere that only the best for me.
I would graduate in a year please help me to arrange my future.
really my future is in YOUR hand ..
*hug Lord

~i don't know what the future holds but i'm sure HE would have been there with me~

biru

biru tidak pergi
dia hanya tidak ingin berdiam disini
biru tidak diam
dia hanya tidak ingin bicara disini
biru tidak takut
dia hanya tidak ingin yang lain kecewa disini
biru hanya merenung
biru hanya bisa bertanya
biru bukan tak mampu
biru bukan tak gentar
biru hanya ingin bebas
begitulah realita kisah malam yang ada
ketika pangeran malam terlelap biru mulai menjauh
ketika pangeran malam bangun ia menyadari biru tersudut
lalu mengapa dia biarkan biru disana
pangeran cuma bisa diam dan pergi
dia tahu dia lebih tahu dari yang biru tahu
biru hanya perlu merah datang agar biru tahu bahwa biru ada
biru, bukan karena kau buta tetapi karena ini memang kita
biru, bukan karena kau sirna tetapi karena ini milik kita
biru, jangan murka karena ini bukan saatnya mencinta

hijau

ada yang bilang hijau itu kelabu
bukan karena dia harus mencari tetapi karena dia ditutupi
ada yang bilang hijau itu rapuh
itu pun karena dia mulai kehilangan warnanya
tetapi ada yang bilang hijau itu indah
itu karena dia yang tau apa arti yang sebenarnya

bukan selalu hijau adalah buruk
hanya saja kemurnian itu tidak didapat
lalu mengapa tak mencari hijau lain?
apakah hijau mulai diragukan adanya?
ataukah karena hijau sendiri sudah meragukan dirinya?

jika semua tuturan ini hanya belaka biarkan dia jadi asa
jika semua santunan ini mengecewakan biarkan dia jadi pedoman
tetapi jika semua obrolan ini mengagumkan biarkan dia terpatri di hati

~y&i~

1st quarter of this year

yoohooo it's been 2 weeks since the latest post
as i stated in several post i would like to share about the times which i have been facin' through upon this first quarter..
let's take a look:

January:
actually i started the year with hopes that January would be good enough.. but.. haha.. *censored
but what i like the most about this month is the atmosphere of Bandung..
well actually i don't really know why i miss this city so much after holiday..
i renew the paint of my room, i made some change at my schedule ( just a little ) and of course i rearrange my spirit and time management.. some how i love the startin' point of this year..
after all i didn't really know what happenned in this month

February:
The torture begins !
it's what i felt and i thought first about this month..
due to my advice lecturer ( final year project ) was in Korea..
i still don't know how to do my final year project besides all my friends busy enough to find the literature for the research..

after the decision about Chemical Plant Design Competition ( Rabrik ) on my earlier 6th semester totally messed up my days ! haha.. but it's a quite experience..!
my friend got sick and i should finish all the draft by myself for only just a week maybe..
my heart felt like *sigh why should i do all of these bunch!!
eventually i feel so blessed after i've finished all of them although i didn't make it to the final but i was quite shocked that i could got nice score 68.. the big three who went to final only scores 77 haha.. ( just entertaining myself =p)
So sorry my Rabrik,, your master couldn't finish you very well , due to my lack of management haha.. maybe next year i would try again! wish me luck !

and also about my event "Pesta Rakjat 2011" which gathered lots of controversial comment..
it's still lack money about 20 million .. i just got feel dizzier after some of committee wanted to resign and it's only 3 weeks left.. oh my goodness, but from this experience i learned how to work under a pressure .

maybe all the day of my february is as blue as all the cloudy day

March
all the deadlines,project,lab,event mixed my emotion up so great !
i had the mid term exam in this month.. well the result is not so good but also not so bad,, i should've done better..

finally this month my event was held successfully ! thanks and a big hug for YOU GOD..
my lecturer also come back to Indonesia .. and the day became more cruel than before..

April
a month of stressful,disappointment,busy, ohhh my goodness,, this month tortured me the most!
i should do all my lab project while doing the final year project proposal while doing my presentation while doing the election while doing the call phone for internship while doing bla bla bla bla.. ( lots of things actually ! )

this month let my mood so blown away ,, my emotion goin' rather high .. one day of this month i thought about escaping all the things and goin' on a holiday but it would be so crazy if i did that ! haha..

First quarter has just passed like that.
oh my .. this routine had waste my time a lot !
this major .. ohh.. i don't want to mention it !


but still i love how God made me this quarter..
thanks God..

second quarter, you better be good !
~y&i~

Gun Lae Gun

This is not the title of food or a place to go..
This is a song, yeapp this is thai song!
Recently thai movie is burning awesome these days , and i do admit that thai movie should be awarded because the plot, the story itself and also the actor/actress are quite awesome ..

today i found a song, that has a really deep emotional lyrics..
It's from the love of Siam,, i admire the writer of this song, this song is purely pure i think !

If I said that this song is made for you, would you believe it?
It’s probably not melodious, not affectionate, not beautiful like other songs.
I want you to know that if there’s no love, you can’t write a love song.
But for you, my dear, do you know? I wrote it easily.
( this is the part that i do fall in love with the lyrics from the first time i hear it ! )
You’ve probably heard hundreds and thousands of love songs
that’s probably impressive
but with a similar meaning altogether, but if you listen to this song,
a song that’s written simply for you.
For you to understand the meaning of it, our hearts will then have a connection.
Let it be a song on our pathways that consist only voices of you and me.
Together as long as possible.
As the meaning is told in a poetry that as long as there’s love naturally there’s hope.
Means whenever your love shines through the heart, I have a goal.
There is a lot of facts found in love,
and in the past I used the time for the sake of finding the meaning.
But soon, I’d just know it, whenever you are near me,
That if life’s a rhythm, you are as good as the words that is melodious and touching to the heart.
Let it be a song on our pathways that consist only voices of you and me.
Together as long as possible.
As the meaning is told in a poetry that as long as there’s love naturally there’s hope.
Means whenever your love shines through the heart, I have a goal.
There’s a pathway for us to walk side by side and there are voices of you and me.
There’s a pathway for us to walk side by side and there are voices of you and me.
~y&i~

differently indifferent

( the title above is just a bunch of words that squeeze around my mind )

it's been quite a long time since the last post ( almost 4 month )
and this is an officially real post for 2011

what should i say about time, it really blew me away. I almost can't realize that the 1st quarter of 2011 is going to be ended in a week!
what i have done during these times?
Oh my goodness, maybe the philosophy was right..
" you never know how much it worth until it's gone "
namely i realize it is called time definitely

i will talk about how this first quarter "did" in terms of torturing me later hahahh..
i just really miss those times when i could freely write and think about what should i write, and i try to fix it up one by one..
yes! definitely i need a manager of time!
why would all these kind of things and stuffs grumbled and murmured a lot !
if i could say probably to the time..
yes i missed those times when i have no hard feelings to talk at all
yes i missed those times when i have no intentions to think about
yes i missed those times when i could laugh freely without ever thinking about all around me
but that was just too naive

so here i am
laying back upon my pillow to catch my desire and to finish every single things that i have started..
Do differently indifferent !

life could be endless misery. But instead, God allows us to enjoy it because of his lovingkindness

you don't have to become creepy to walk with God ( ps Chuck )