God,,
i'm so sure You've already known what i felt upon these days
actually it made me to freak out
and sometimes it seems i just don't want to chill it out
my fear..
from our chat that time..
i'm just get so sure enough that ... ( yah YOU know the answer rite =p )
but..
because of that..
it makes me realize,, am I ?
what about then?
what about theirs?
seems like i'm not ready enough to get involved or i'm too afraid of it?
yah i know about worthy or not worthy
You are the best to describe the word "deserve"
i just want to have chat with YOU more Lord..
make us lean on You more God..
it's been 3 month of frustrating and suppressing..
i know there's still a long way to go before the D-day..
just punch me Lord,smash me..
i know you've already workin on me since i was in 6th grade ..
Lord if it is true..
then You should process us during this 9 month..
if not i pray Let Your be done..
i just realize how small i am in Your hand..
Lord,sometimes i want to scream out just by the message
last nite i dreamed of a very crazy did!
or about the dream of 8?
should it be 8?
or not Lord?
but thx Lord for this kind of pump,smash and weird called feeling..
You have assured me that this is the best way i should have go through..
thx for the hug Dad!
let me learn and listen from YOU..
~your dearest son~
