Between she,she,and i

in last couple of weeks,, i've never thought that this would be much more worse than before..
it's 'bout my oldie life and love..
my love,her love or her love..
it would be a triangle love..

Realised that i was too foolish bout choosin' n making a decision make this problem become more complicated..

if u read my latest post..
i've just said that i choose lyra..
a full distinctive war has just begun
i've a friend named vereny...

it brings back my old memory..
firstly we met when we were still in junior high school
Vereny n Lyra had further relation than a friend..
perhaps they are soulmates actually..
i do fell for vereny at that time ..
Furthermore i've told her 'bout my feelin..
N so does she,,
She appreciates what i felt..
but it was too late,, vereny should leave palembang with some reasons..
and i completely made a totally wrong decision..
without any explanation
i broke our relation up.. we lose our contact..
i know it's my fault..
i don't want to take a risk about long distance relation..
because i'm only 15 at that time...
and i made a conclusion without thinking what would probably happen in the future...
Till now our relation is questionable...
Does vereny still feel what i feel at that time or the feeling is already perished??
yesterday ,,
my foster brother suddenly asked bout both of them,,
i was speechless,,

if vereny knows that i do fell for her dearly n best friend lyra...
what would happen??
would they break their friendship up??
i know i should be strict,,
but i want their friendship would never become messed up...
what should i do??
what should i say to vereny??
As a song says,," this love would probably kill me.."
( cinta ini membunuhku )
i just only want to beg her pardon..
not to hurt her..
oh Dad..
Should i be a backstreet lover??
i'm totally surrounded in this circle,,
this dilemma...
huff..
please...
hope i would wise things...