biru

biru tidak pergi
dia hanya tidak ingin berdiam disini
biru tidak diam
dia hanya tidak ingin bicara disini
biru tidak takut
dia hanya tidak ingin yang lain kecewa disini
biru hanya merenung
biru hanya bisa bertanya
biru bukan tak mampu
biru bukan tak gentar
biru hanya ingin bebas
begitulah realita kisah malam yang ada
ketika pangeran malam terlelap biru mulai menjauh
ketika pangeran malam bangun ia menyadari biru tersudut
lalu mengapa dia biarkan biru disana
pangeran cuma bisa diam dan pergi
dia tahu dia lebih tahu dari yang biru tahu
biru hanya perlu merah datang agar biru tahu bahwa biru ada
biru, bukan karena kau buta tetapi karena ini memang kita
biru, bukan karena kau sirna tetapi karena ini milik kita
biru, jangan murka karena ini bukan saatnya mencinta

hijau

ada yang bilang hijau itu kelabu
bukan karena dia harus mencari tetapi karena dia ditutupi
ada yang bilang hijau itu rapuh
itu pun karena dia mulai kehilangan warnanya
tetapi ada yang bilang hijau itu indah
itu karena dia yang tau apa arti yang sebenarnya

bukan selalu hijau adalah buruk
hanya saja kemurnian itu tidak didapat
lalu mengapa tak mencari hijau lain?
apakah hijau mulai diragukan adanya?
ataukah karena hijau sendiri sudah meragukan dirinya?

jika semua tuturan ini hanya belaka biarkan dia jadi asa
jika semua santunan ini mengecewakan biarkan dia jadi pedoman
tetapi jika semua obrolan ini mengagumkan biarkan dia terpatri di hati

~y&i~

1st quarter of this year

yoohooo it's been 2 weeks since the latest post
as i stated in several post i would like to share about the times which i have been facin' through upon this first quarter..
let's take a look:

January:
actually i started the year with hopes that January would be good enough.. but.. haha.. *censored
but what i like the most about this month is the atmosphere of Bandung..
well actually i don't really know why i miss this city so much after holiday..
i renew the paint of my room, i made some change at my schedule ( just a little ) and of course i rearrange my spirit and time management.. some how i love the startin' point of this year..
after all i didn't really know what happenned in this month

February:
The torture begins !
it's what i felt and i thought first about this month..
due to my advice lecturer ( final year project ) was in Korea..
i still don't know how to do my final year project besides all my friends busy enough to find the literature for the research..

after the decision about Chemical Plant Design Competition ( Rabrik ) on my earlier 6th semester totally messed up my days ! haha.. but it's a quite experience..!
my friend got sick and i should finish all the draft by myself for only just a week maybe..
my heart felt like *sigh why should i do all of these bunch!!
eventually i feel so blessed after i've finished all of them although i didn't make it to the final but i was quite shocked that i could got nice score 68.. the big three who went to final only scores 77 haha.. ( just entertaining myself =p)
So sorry my Rabrik,, your master couldn't finish you very well , due to my lack of management haha.. maybe next year i would try again! wish me luck !

and also about my event "Pesta Rakjat 2011" which gathered lots of controversial comment..
it's still lack money about 20 million .. i just got feel dizzier after some of committee wanted to resign and it's only 3 weeks left.. oh my goodness, but from this experience i learned how to work under a pressure .

maybe all the day of my february is as blue as all the cloudy day

March
all the deadlines,project,lab,event mixed my emotion up so great !
i had the mid term exam in this month.. well the result is not so good but also not so bad,, i should've done better..

finally this month my event was held successfully ! thanks and a big hug for YOU GOD..
my lecturer also come back to Indonesia .. and the day became more cruel than before..

April
a month of stressful,disappointment,busy, ohhh my goodness,, this month tortured me the most!
i should do all my lab project while doing the final year project proposal while doing my presentation while doing the election while doing the call phone for internship while doing bla bla bla bla.. ( lots of things actually ! )

this month let my mood so blown away ,, my emotion goin' rather high .. one day of this month i thought about escaping all the things and goin' on a holiday but it would be so crazy if i did that ! haha..

First quarter has just passed like that.
oh my .. this routine had waste my time a lot !
this major .. ohh.. i don't want to mention it !


but still i love how God made me this quarter..
thanks God..

second quarter, you better be good !
~y&i~

Gun Lae Gun

This is not the title of food or a place to go..
This is a song, yeapp this is thai song!
Recently thai movie is burning awesome these days , and i do admit that thai movie should be awarded because the plot, the story itself and also the actor/actress are quite awesome ..

today i found a song, that has a really deep emotional lyrics..
It's from the love of Siam,, i admire the writer of this song, this song is purely pure i think !

If I said that this song is made for you, would you believe it?
It’s probably not melodious, not affectionate, not beautiful like other songs.
I want you to know that if there’s no love, you can’t write a love song.
But for you, my dear, do you know? I wrote it easily.
( this is the part that i do fall in love with the lyrics from the first time i hear it ! )
You’ve probably heard hundreds and thousands of love songs
that’s probably impressive
but with a similar meaning altogether, but if you listen to this song,
a song that’s written simply for you.
For you to understand the meaning of it, our hearts will then have a connection.
Let it be a song on our pathways that consist only voices of you and me.
Together as long as possible.
As the meaning is told in a poetry that as long as there’s love naturally there’s hope.
Means whenever your love shines through the heart, I have a goal.
There is a lot of facts found in love,
and in the past I used the time for the sake of finding the meaning.
But soon, I’d just know it, whenever you are near me,
That if life’s a rhythm, you are as good as the words that is melodious and touching to the heart.
Let it be a song on our pathways that consist only voices of you and me.
Together as long as possible.
As the meaning is told in a poetry that as long as there’s love naturally there’s hope.
Means whenever your love shines through the heart, I have a goal.
There’s a pathway for us to walk side by side and there are voices of you and me.
There’s a pathway for us to walk side by side and there are voices of you and me.
~y&i~

differently indifferent

( the title above is just a bunch of words that squeeze around my mind )

it's been quite a long time since the last post ( almost 4 month )
and this is an officially real post for 2011

what should i say about time, it really blew me away. I almost can't realize that the 1st quarter of 2011 is going to be ended in a week!
what i have done during these times?
Oh my goodness, maybe the philosophy was right..
" you never know how much it worth until it's gone "
namely i realize it is called time definitely

i will talk about how this first quarter "did" in terms of torturing me later hahahh..
i just really miss those times when i could freely write and think about what should i write, and i try to fix it up one by one..
yes! definitely i need a manager of time!
why would all these kind of things and stuffs grumbled and murmured a lot !
if i could say probably to the time..
yes i missed those times when i have no hard feelings to talk at all
yes i missed those times when i have no intentions to think about
yes i missed those times when i could laugh freely without ever thinking about all around me
but that was just too naive

so here i am
laying back upon my pillow to catch my desire and to finish every single things that i have started..
Do differently indifferent !

life could be endless misery. But instead, God allows us to enjoy it because of his lovingkindness

you don't have to become creepy to walk with God ( ps Chuck )